This fast-paced world is wearing me thin. How 'bout you? Does anyone else get tired of the hustle and bustle, constant, non-stop, ever-moving society we live in? Sometimes I feel like I want to crawl into bed and hibernate for a few months. My calendar is booked. Every vacation I have, when I'm not going out of town, is full of appointments and errands. I haven't been feeling well for a week now. I'm contemplating going to the doctor in the morning, but I feel guilty missing work. Why? I'm sick. I think I have an infection and am in dire need of an antibiotic. I rarely miss work and always give 200% of myself when I'm there, so why do I feel guilty for taking a day off to get myself checked out? Alas, when morning comes and I feel even worse than I do today, I'll cave in. I must.

Praying that my Great Physician will heal me completely and soon.

Several years ago, I developed a strong passion for Bible prophecy. It came upon me almost supernaturally and I now have an insatiable appetite for studying eschatology. I can fill up several shelves of a bookcase with the many books and videos I have accumulated over the years relating to the end times as foretold in Scripture. I believe fervently that we are the generation that Jesus stated would witness His return one day.

What is unbearable for me is how oblivious self-proclaimed Christians are of the season we're living in. Jesus stated that no man knows the day or the hour but we would recognize the season. I can only surmise that many of these Christians are in love with this world and the things of this world. Admittedly, I used to be. I was keenly aware of the prophecied rapture of the church, but I had a life to live. I had a family. I wanted to see my children grow, graduate from HS, from college, get married, start families of their own. I had a job I loved. I had my own little hobbies, places I wanted to visit and experiences yet to be realized. I wanted to write a novel. I desired to live a long and fulfilling life. But then I realized that no earthly experience could remotely relate to what God has in store for those who love Him. He said that Himself....eye has not seen, ear has not heard, neither has entered into the heart of man what God has in store for those who love Him. Wow! We cannot even begin to fathom, in our finite minds, what God has prepared for us. He's given us this beautiful earth to enjoy, even in our sinful state; just try to image, if you will, the glory that awaits us.

I no longer feel an attachment to my life here on earth. I've not lost my love for my family or my desire to live a happy and abundant life, and if the Lord tarries, I pray that He sees fit to bless me with such a life. But more and more I'm beginning to feel like I don't belong here. My true citizenship is in Heaven, where my Lord and Savior, Jesus, is.

Jesus is coming soon to take his bride home. Are you ready?

Maranatha, Lord Jesus!

Prayer

Ah...prayer. What a privilege to have direct access to God the Father through His Son, Jesus Christ.

Hebrews 4:15,16 - For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

Think about it. We are told to come boldly before the throne of grace! My prayer life hasn't always been what I would've liked it to be. Often, I get so caught up in the cares of this world, I either don't take the time to pray or I feel unworthy to call on Him. Sometimes I feel as if I'm so inadequate and insignificant. I know it's the enemy working on dragging me down. What good is a Christian, after all, if she feels unimportant to her Heavenly Father? Satan knows this. But our Father wants us to talk to Him. Consider this verse:

I Peter 5:7 - Casting all your care upon Him, for He careth for you.

I don't feel special. I don't feel especially important in the grand scheme of things. Sometimes I even feel helpless and hopeless. But then I have to remind myself that He really does care for me....He cares for ME. Thank you Father God.